2005 ... wow. we are 5 years and 3 days into the 00s'(is that what you call it). ever notice as the years go by expectations for yourself seems to dwindle. i've given up on getting paid big money and working like a dog for some big company, not that i think i would have ever made it. i lack the ability to "play the game" and i'm not a spineless f*ck. i'm starting to accept i'll just be some low level accountant working for the man trying to obtain a house and maybe ... someday (gulp) a family.

its not like we have all this time ... before you know it we'll all be 30 or 40 something. what i'm trying to say is for 2005 try to do the most you can and really take advantage of the year. go travel, spend money, have fun, party, read, spend time with family and friends ... basically do stuff that you find fun because you don't want to spend your time wondering what you could of done but instead think of the stuff you did do.

okay enough positive talk ... back to the cynical view of things which is what i'm really good at.

i think i'm just saying all this because i'm starting to accept i will never move up in my job or make super good money or go to a good business school so i'm trying accept what a dork i am. and not the good geek dork like i wish i could be ... more the loser dork who watches way too many netflix movies because i don't have anything better to do my time.

oh and happy new year.

does anyone even read this or blog anymore ... geez (in disgust).