read this story about Michael Moore's new movie while on my lunchbreak. the part that really got to me was this:

"Moore talks with resident Lila Lipscomb during her daily routine, hanging an American flag in front of her house. He returns later as Lipscomb heart-wrenchingly reads the final letter from her son, Michael Pedersen, killed in action in Iraq. As her patriotism turns to bitterness against the federal government, Lipscomb journeys to Washington, D.C. Near the end of "Fahrenheit 9/11," Lipscomb stares at the White House and says, "I finally have a place to put all my pain and anger."

do i love america? yes and no. do i hate america? yes and no. when t.w.i.f.o.s.l.y, dorkus and i were in spain ... t.w.i.f.o.s.l.y and dorkus said i love spain, it is so much better than the us. i didn't say much to that.

am i pro american?? yes and no. sometimes i think it is too easy to say "oh i hate america ... it is so stupid and they think they are better than everyone else". of course there are horrible horrible things that america has done and is going to do but why did my parents, and for that matter many of the people on this blog page and friends you know, come here if they didn't think they could have made a better life for themselves and their children??? i don't get that. i think back then america had better values and standards. if anything the fabric of american society is the one that's all messed up.

in the end my feelings towards this country won't make any changes ... there will still be some evil white male in the white house and the rich will continue to be rich and the poor will continue to struggle and people in southern california will find the need to purchase a suv and buy more crap. so basically i'm saying i'm just apathic towards whether i love or hate america.

oh and side note last night's simpson was very insightful and pretty much discussed this very matter. i know people think it is some stupid cartoon but if they paid attention they might find out it is pretty fucking clever.

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