i should be asleep but eh. my throat is killing me. i just wanted to make clear that although i complained about my company party, my new place is pretty sweet and i really can't say anything. work is killing me though. sheesh i've gone in early and stayed late and i've only been there for 3 weeks. ha ha. oh well. it so does not feel like the holidays are upon us.

oh and okay mac, obviously you were not informed .... the whole follow your dreams, you can do anything you put your mind to crap they cram down your throat in grade school ..... IT IS ALL SHITE. ha ha. you can try to find that job that will make you happy, that will fulfill your "enjoyments" or "desires" but see once you get that you will be quickly dissatisfied. why you ask. because it is human nature to always strive for something else. once we have attained what we wanted we get bore and want more. ain't we grand like that. i would like to end with a song from a "great" band that i think should lift your spirits mac :)

HOLD ON

This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad you're feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go thru
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Your days you say they're way too long
And your nights you can't sleep at all (hold on)
And you're not sure what you're waiting for
But you don't want to know more
And you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to know more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking you're one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on

by: the great and only ..... GOOD CHARLOTTE

spinning: here comes alice - JAMC